Lol fuck my rapist for making me tell him I loved him after he raped me now I can't fucking say it when I mean it 5 fucking years later

"What are you thinking right now?"
"I hope I don't get pregnant"
"Don't you have anything to say?"
"Like what?"
"How about I love you?"
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"Bye Loki"
"I love you too"
"No, I said "bye Loki""
"oh."
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"I love you"
"Yeah."
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"I liked your card because I could tell you really love me. I don't wanna say it now because I'm drunk and it wouldn't mean anything but for now, let's just say I really like you"
"I really fucking like you too"
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"Bye, travel safe............"
"Yeah. See you soon."
FUCK