Confidence

I drive myself crazy with negative thoughts. The stress starts flowing and suddenly I am the fattest, ugliest, stupidest girl who is definitely never getting into college and will never have a boyfriend. I sulk around these thoughts, swimming between islands of negativity and solitude, screaming for acceptance, and mourning in my teenage angst the apparent loss of childhood. 95% of the time I am being melodramatic. But the negativity still steeps through my soul, slowly invading every nook and cranny of my being. I don’t want this anymore. I want to be able to love myself, to portray confidence, to shine bright with optimism and pride. I want to banish the dark thoughts and flush them out with acceptance and self-love. I know that if I can do that, the rest will follow. People will be happier to be around me. I might be able to spread my confidence and make them feel better about themselves. Starting now, I will take more risks, and not be cripplingly afraid of failure. I just need to find my voice. I need to be confident in who I am. I need to remember that I am not alone. I will take a deep breath and face the challenges before me. I am going to work hard, but not forget to take care of myself. I will try to love more, to accept more. I will remember what is important to me, and make sure to always keep it in mind. I will try my very best to not care what others think of me. I will not only make it through this year, I will LIVE this year, I will make it count.

I WILL STOP WHINING I WILL BE BRAVE I WILL BE KIND I WILL WORK HARD I WILL LOVE YOU UNTIL I BURST