Everyone is a hipster

Well, not the city dwelling, arrogant, tattooed college student. I'm talking about the mentality of "liking things before they were cool," and becoming annoyed when suddenly everyone seems to like that thing that only they used to like. Everyone's done this at some point in their life, whether it was over a certain song, type of music or band, a style or type of fashion, or even a hobby/certain activity. I most recently felt this way when I heard a song I really liked on the radio, which should be a good thing, but in a way, I felt annoyed that a "good" song would be played with some of the crap out there today. Instead of enjoying a song that I liked, I jumped to the idea that I would like it less now that millions of people also knew it and would be singing it and playing it at parties. I guess the way I see it, is that the music I enjoy isn't generally well known, and I don't often encounter people with the same music tastes as me outside my group of friends. To be honest, my music taste isn't even that obscure, it's just different enough that not a lot of people are familiar with what I listen to. This can be annoying sometimes, like when I'm trying to talk to others about music, but we're on two different pages. Having a slightly different taste in music does gives me a sense that in a way, I am unique, special, my music is quirky and I'm the only one in the world who likes it, even though I know there are tons of people out there that listen to and enjoy the same stuff I do. I guess everyone gets that way though, everyone has that thing that they feel puts them apart from the public, makes them who they are, and when that thing, whatever it is, is spread among the masses, whether it becomes trendy or hits the music charts, instead of feeling happy that the things they love are becoming loved and shared by others, they feel like they're less special now, and the thing that used to make them unique, now just makes them another face in the crowd. It seems to me that hipsters have formed a culture out of this, trying to gather as much obscurity as possible, to make themselves as unique as they can. This sort of corrupts the point of having your own "thing" since their thing is really just finding of new, more obscure "things". In conclusion, not everyone is a hipster, hipsters just take what everything does, and tries to market it to be unique.

Alright, done trying to sound smart. See you all soon!

My life, as of now (faux philosophical)

I am currently messing around on the internet (Yay for reddit!) while a thunderstorms rages outside. It's that point in the summer where you're clinging to the last threads of summer as it slowly slips from your fingers. I'd much rather just have summer for the next few months instead of school. I mean, school has friends and some cool classes but there's work and actually doing stuff and I just want to sleep and waste time doing stuff I like. Then again, we are some of the lucky ones, we're still young, in the very beginning of our adulthood (Drivers ed in september!) and we're still figuring stuff out and learning how the world works. We have a huge amount of free time and for now anyway, the expectations put on us are nowhere near as bad as they will be. I've been thinking a lot about how great it is to be young, because I feel like that's not something people usually do until they're old. Of course, each part of life comes with great new experiences, but as we gain freedom and independence, we also gain responsibility. This is the time when we can do what we want with few(er) repercussions. We can screw stuff up and experiment without it having a major impact on our lives. We can have fun and still leech off of our parents. Also, no taxes! So yeah, college will be fun and being a grownup and having a family will be great, but I'm pretty content with the way things are right now, and I'm going to enjoy this part of my life and try not to be too sad to leave it.

Home again!

So, 54 bug bites later and I am finally back from camp. From what I can tell, I missed a party, the Harry freaking Potter premiere (NEED TO SEE ASAP), my hamster losing all his hair, the space shuttle, a couple epic sunburns, and eating crap food (I've missed you mozzarella sticks). I am so psyched for Zooey's b-day party, just because I freaking miss people and need to catch up really badly. Camp was actually really fun, and I made some great friends, did some good farming, did some awesome flips in a hayloft and met some nerdfighters. All and all it was a pretty good time. I missed the internet just a little, but I missed people getting my references/understanding my jokes more. I also missed showering and not smelling like poo. Yesterday I learned that henna hair dye, while it seems like a cool idea and has some pretty cool results is not worth a green bathtub or scrubbing your sisters head. If I ever get highlights, I'm doing it with a legit kit. Project runway comes back in a weekish so...yay. Note to self; moar John Green. Did I mention I'm excited for boston? And I miss people? A lot? Guys? Ava, we need to plan an epic beach day, stat. Mosquitos, you need to fuck the fuck off.
Song(s) of the moment: Lisztomania-Phoenix
FOR REAL LISTEN TO THIS IT'S GOOD SHIT
Also Helplessness blues-Fleet Foxes.
P.S. It's really hot outside x(

Yeah...

1. So I am super excited to head out to WA on thursday. I can't wait to see my family and have fun times. Really excited.
2. To fill the void left by my finishing dr. who, I have been watching The Big Bang Theory, which, if you haven't seen it, is the best show in the history of shows and it is so incredibly hilarious and amazing and wonderful and it is soooo funny. WATCH THIS
3. I like summer a lot
4. So today, we were walking around mystic village, near the aquarium, and we saw one of those stores that sells stuff like crystals and fancy rocks and incense for magical type people to communicate with the earth or whatever, and sam saw it, and asked us if we could go in. We asked him why, and he told us he thought it would be a good place to find Harry Potter merchandise.
5. WASHINGTON

Sisterhood of the traveling blogs 1.1

Yeah...see Honor's blog if you don't get this.
(I'm assuming you mean an actual lobster and not L)
1. First, wonder wtf a lobster is doing in a well seeing as they live in salt water
2. Feel sad for the fact that the lobster will probably die shortly
3. Use my super duper climbing skills to climb out of the well, leaving the dead lobster behind.

Sisterhood of the traveling blogs 2.0
If you were trapped on a desert island for a while, and could magically get 3 different types of food (or drink) delivered to you whenever you wanted (You already have a water source and a food source, but it's not that good) what would they be and why?

Dr. whooves

Gotta love it when the fans of two different things come together to create awesomeness. And now that I have watched every single dr who episode of the new series, I have no clue what to do with my time.

Project L

So yeah. People are leaving this year. It's pretty crappy. That's why I'm proposing project L. This will be a compilation of cards, gifts, and that kind of thing for both bros who are leaving. If all goes according to plan, this will also include an awesome going away party. I'd like to kick this project off with a giant card for Le I'm making that we will all sign and give to him at the end of the year. Here's the text I plan to put inside, please give me edits or things you'd like to add, seeing as this is meant to be a letter from all of us. 10 points if you can read it without crying (my current score is 0).


I’m sure you’ll admit that we have all had some pretty great times together. And I’m also sure you’ll agree that none of us want you to go. It makes it harder to know that you will be about a thousand miles away. It’s impossible to deny the fact that we’re all going to miss you like crazy and that things just won’t be the same without you and your music, your sketchy jokes, your crush on Jack, your leg wounds, and your general charm and likeability. But we’ve got to accept the fact that soon, you will no longer be an immediate part of our everyday lives, and that soon, you’re just not going to be around anymore. Change of any kind is hard, but it’s even harder when you lose people you care about. Like it or not though, it’s part of life. Change is inevitable. That’s why we need to suck it up and give you our support. We’d like to wish you the best in your travels. We hope you’ll face everything that comes your way with optimism and courage. We hope that wherever you go you’ll find adventure and friendship, and we hope that you will always have a place where you feel a sense of love and belonging. Above all, however, we hope that you always remember to keep in touch, and that you come back and visit from time to time. Losing a person as wonderful and incredible as you isn’t going to be easy for us, and I’m sure none of this is easy for you, so I just want you to know that we’ll always be here for support and encouragement whenever you need it, and we’ll all be here if you just need a good laugh. Lewis, I hope you’ll never forget us, because we sure as hell are never going to forget you. Thanks for all the memories, good and bad. Things around here aren’t going to be the same without you.
With love, (signatures here)

Dear Bros of the Internet

Dear bros of the internet and irl,
It's me. Hi. I'm a girl. I use the internet. (It sure beats hanging out in the kitchen all the time) Heres something you might not want to hear. I know memes. This may be hard to understand, but using the internet as much as I do, (too much) it's kind of hard not too. And I'm not just talking about memebase or know your meme or whatever, I'm talking tumblr and reddit and all those other places where memes take shape. This means that I know memes pretty soon after they form and become popular. (maybe I even know them before you do) This being said, I would like to say PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE don't pretend like you own memes or the internet or the games you play. I realize knowing these things makes you seem cool, and when more people start knowing them, you seem less cool, but I have just as much right to use memes in my everyday life as you, or anyone else who has stumbled across the internet does. Please don't pretend like you invented or even introduced these memes, because you probably didn't. I don't mean to sound all high and mighty, or above you, because in the end we're all just losers who waste our time browsing the web for a laugh, so please don't pretend to be an internet wizard who is all knowing and always brings the lols that no one else is allowed to use because they are lame and are just repeating what you told them.
Love, me.

So yeah. That's my rant. I'm tired and bored and may end up regretting posting this. Just to make things clear, I don't actually feel that strongly about this or anyone I know, it's more of a based on a true story kinda thing.

Also, I have a confession to make. I am a brony. Well...a female brony. This is pretty hard to admit, but a brony is pretty much a bro who watches the kids show "my little pony: friendship is magic." Now, I know EXACTLY how this sounds, and that was my reaction when I first heard about the cult following of 20 year old men this show has gathered, but I watched one of the 22 minute videos that have been uploaded to youtube, and I instantly understood the hype. It's a cast of six incredibly well developed pony characters, a baby dragon, and a pegasus princess. The reason this show is amazing is because it's barely childish, and can truly be enjoyed by people older than age 8. It's funny and really adorably drawn and the stories are entertaining and surprisingly not very cheesy or kidish. It is a show that just makes you happy, because it's impossible to be sad or stressed or worried while watching it. If you don't believe me...here's another person describing the appeal, and a link to the first episode, which is not nececarily the best episode (For if you ever get really really really really bored.)
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Rejection

So yeah. No studio for me. Whatever. I can deal.
As much as I'd love to whine and complain about how I really wanted to get in, sob about how I'm so disappointed, and mope about how I guess my art skills aren't as good as I thought they were, I won't. I can't.
As I'm sure you all know, rejection hurts. It makes you reevaluate your skills, your talent, and your life. It makes you upset that you will be left alone to watch all your friends go while you sit out and watch them because they're all better than you. It makes you hate them, just a little, even though you know how RIDICULOUS that thought is because they deserve it and you should be happy for them, even though you can't help but feel jealous as they post their well-deserved happiness all over their facebook walls.
But I'm not here to cry and bitch and whine about how much my life sucks and how I hate my life, because I know this isn't the end of the world. I can be resilient and move on from this setback. I can take this lesson and learn from it. I can make it a goal to improve myself and my art. I can bounce back and get better and move forward. And best of all, I can take every single art class and later do seminar, which I will love.
Yes, I am disappointed and upset, but that will pass, and eventually I will come out of my rejection with all the positives in mind, and move towards becoming the best artist I can be.

Funny

Here's a poem I wrote just a few minutes ago when the inspiration hit
No, it's not for my English portfolio, and yes, this is a first draft. Critique is very welcome.

Funny
By me

I look funny when I wear a towel
After a shower
Wrapped over my chest
Held in place under my arms

I look funny when I dance at parties
Hips shaking awkwardly
Arms moving sporadically
To the beat of some song I hate

I look funny when I try to run
My short legs pushing me forward
My arms pumping with each step
My heart beating faster
And my destination doesn’t seem to get any closer

I look funny when I laugh
With my mouth open wide
My braces shining for all to see
My eyes squished by my raised cheeks

I look funny when I cry
Over a sad book or movie or memory
Tears streaking my face
My mouth blubbering uncontrollably
My eyes red and bloodshot

But I do these things anyway
Some bring me joy
Some offer me an escape
Some allow me to let go

Where would we be
If we never acted on what we felt?
Never spoke our minds
Never let go
Because we feared
What others
Would think of us

Who would we be
If our lives were ruled
By how we feel we look to others?

Maybe they are
Maybe they always have been.

Late and Can't Sleep

So I can't sleep. School starts tomorrow. I'm not looking forward to actually doing work, but I can't wait to see all my friends. Vacation has to had been great for everyone, and I know that any bitterness or grumpyness I have had has been smoothed out by rest and thinking. I wish school didn't have to start on a monday though, because it is the one day I have no frees, but I'm looking forward to afterschool when I can be with A and Z and whoever else happens to be hanging around. I've really missed everyone a lot. Also, sorry for being so grumpy in the past, and thanks for putting up with my occasional grumpy patches. That's really what friends do. They put up with all of each others crap, because they know they've certainly got crap of their own. That's how I see it anyway. Plus, with friends as amazing as the ones I have, putting up with the limited crap they put out is easy enough.
Lets see...
New phrase-"wheels"
It means you get around. Get it? You can say it to someone accusingly or use it to describe someone's behavior, like "he's got wheels." I can't wait to use it, but there's not gonna be too many chances knowing all you guys are pretty not wheely.
what else....
Music.
Phoenix and occasional Arcade fire.
Why am I not tired yet? I need to sleep now so I don't fall asleep tomorrow! Ok, after I publish this post, I'm going to shut my laptop and go to bed. Good night! See you tomorrow!

Obligatory Talk about Vacation Post

So yeah. Cruise. I had fun. When I wasn't feeling slightly seasick, I was eating good food and meeting new people (mostly canadians). When you meet new people, you get talking about your life in ways you don't really on a daily basis. You get a fresh start, which can be nice, or hard, but you also have to tell all about yourself, starting from like...the beginning. It took a while, but I eventually made some good friends. And one good friend. He was a 16 year old from Maine. He was also super smooth. Not the hottest guy around, but not butt-ugly. Like I said, he was smooth, and we spent time together and did some making out. (My advice-Don't use tongue. It's gross) I'm happy I got my first kiss, but I part of me kinda wishes I had been more thoughtful. I'm usually the super-rational thinker, but here I am, first-basing it (maybe more) with him, and I will never ever see him again. Maybe that's what motivated me. Nothing to deal with further down the road, just the here and now. Maybe what I did was harmless, just a one-time thing that's in the past. But maybe I should look at it and be more careful in the future. Not just go along with it because he shows interest. Not do complicated stuff that leads to emotional attachment when I'm not gonna be with him for the long run, or even see him again. So that's what I've been examining for the past week. Who I am, and how my actions reflect that. In the end though, I'm glad I got my first kiss. It means I can stop stressing out about it.

Questions:
1. Why did that kid "smoke" tea bags?
2. How did I lose weight on a cruise?
3. Is 5 earrings too many?
Also-You should watch "Prestige" if you ever get a chance. It's a great movie that's about two rival magicians. IT'S ABOUT MAGIC EVERYONE

Couple Metaphors

Today in the shower I was thinking about our lovely couples and how I would describe them in a metaphor. So here you go.
Z+J=Magnets placed opposite from each other on a table. As they got to know each other, they moved closer and closer together, until finally, after a little pushing, they clicked. And did magnet stuff.
L+T=A great vacation. At first when you arrive, you’re out of your element. You don’t know where to go or what to do because you’re afraid of getting lost. As time goes on, however, you grow to learn and explore the place and you start to know where your going. You learn lots about the place and every moment you spend walking around is incredible. The only issue is that as the vacation nears an end, you realise you’re going to have to leave, but you know you’ve been changed for the better because of your experience. Also, I like the idea of Teal as a couple name
L+H=Adorable. And you know it. (Also I couldn’t think of a good metaphor)
Everyone else-buncha people swirling around each other and going through life, focusing on their school and friends and family and looking forward to when they meet someone who likes them too, but until then just being awesome.
Ok...not perfect metaphors. But couples. Adorable, awesome couples.

Cool Tapes

So yeah. I’ve been feeling much better lately. Been sleeping and baking and whatnot. I figured I’d do a post about some music I like just because I can and because music is awesome.
1. Bishop Allen. In particular, “Dimmer”, “Click, click, click”, and “Rain”
Dimmer
2. Vampire Weekend. I don’t know why the heck I haven’t listened to these guys sooner. Awesome. I especially like “Taxi Cab” and “Giving up the Gun”
3. Voxtrot. I don’t know many songs by them, but I do like “Raised by Wolves” and “The Start of Something”
The Start of Something
4. Mumford and Sons. I’ve only just started listening to them, but I love the high energy songs, and the banjo which you would think would suck, but makes the songs so awesome. I specifically like “Little Lion Man” and “The Cave”
The Cave
4. Jack Penate. Fun, upbeat songs. I like “Spit at Stars” and “Have I Been a Fool”
Spit at stars
5. Adele. I like her. She sings really great songs like “Rolling in the Deep” “Right as Rain” and “Tired”
6. Marching band. Try “For your Love” or “Gorgeous Behavior”
For your love
And now some random artists I like and know songs of but don’t know all that well.
-The Go! Team
-Asobi Sesku
-Lykke Li
-Matt & Kim
-Taken by Trees
-The Whitest Boy Alive
-Au Revior Simone
-The Blow
-The Pigeon Ditectives
-Santigold
-Say Hi (to Your Mom)
-The Shins
-Shout out Louds
-Sufjan Stevens
And that’s plenty. More than you needed. Ever. Anyway, You should at least listen to one of these artists or songs. They pretty much rock.

Down in the Dumps

I’ve been feeling kinda PMSy lately. Which is strange because I just had mine and march is my drop month. Anyway, I’ve just been kinda sighy, whiney, and self-pitying. Now don’t get me wrong, my life is great. I have the best friends, a great family, and my grades are pretty cooh. But somehow, even surrounded by amazing people, I’ve been feeling lonely. Maybe it’s the couples. It’s probably the couples. I’m really happy for them, really, I am. It’s just that me being the sorta clingy dependent jealous and slightly selfish person I am, I just feel left out and “forever alone” around them. I know they haven’t left or anything, but sometimes I feel like I’ve been left behind, and sometimes I don’t feel as close to those in relationships as I may have once. Maybe it’s a lack of girl time, maybe it’s just me being bitter, but it still kinda hurts. And then the whole thing decides to get a big stick and poke at that part of my subconscious that worries about my friends abandoning me and about me never getting a boyfriend and why boys don’t seem to like me, even though I know that none of this is true. And maybe as a result of all this, I’ve been feeling a bit detached from the main group, which is RIDICULOUS because I’ve been spending plenty of time with A and talking to lots of others. Maybe it’s just that I haven’t really spent lots of time with anyone other than A. With the play, and no one besides G and L sharing my frees, besides class time, I haven’t spent much time around anyone else. Yeah...that’s probably it.
I guess this blog is sort of a nice way to sort out my feelings and whatever.

Test Post

I'm not sure if this is something I'm gonna do or not. I figured I'd give it a try since all the cool kids are doing it. I kinda feel like I'm late to the party, or like that kid who gets the trendy style months after it's cool.
Anyway, here’s my blog. I can’t promise regular updates, seeing as I really don’t have too much to rant about, and if I did, I feel like I’d rather keep it to myself...I’m pretty good at working things out in my head, even if it takes some time. What I will say is that I’m not gonna make up silly nicknames because I am horrible at names and would probably forget each and every one of them. Instead, I will just use first letters of names to make it still sorta private, but easy to understand. Besides, what’s the risk of someone other than my very closest friends reading this anyway?
As I mentioned earlier, I don’t have too much to rant about. I tend to stay out of the H drama for some reason, maybe because I can’t keep up, maybe because I don’t always get it, or maybe some other reason buried deep in my subconscious. Either way, I hope it doesn’t make me a bad friend, I love you just the same, I’m happy for you, but I don’t feel I should get involved. Oh...and can you guys maybe do that less? You know, the go off and chat and giggle about different people in code names...I see why, but it’s not always cool to do that around other people who I’ve seen get uncomfortable and feel really left out. I suppose I feel left out sometimes too, I’m not sure why since I’m pretty in the loop. Oh well. The point is, I’m sure you could maybe find some more private times to discuss such things...I don’t know. Sorry if I’m being harsh.
Some personal notes:
A-I love you, keep on rocking
Z-Don’t forget to smile and take deep breaths
H-I know I’m not supposed to get involved, but I say just go for it. All out. Just go.
T-Chill out. Don’t be so dramatic
R-Stay cool and rational and don’t freak out and don’t be so competitive.
And to all-Don’t forget to see the other side of the story and the silver lining of the cloud.