Funny

Here's a poem I wrote just a few minutes ago when the inspiration hit
No, it's not for my English portfolio, and yes, this is a first draft. Critique is very welcome.

Funny
By me

I look funny when I wear a towel
After a shower
Wrapped over my chest
Held in place under my arms

I look funny when I dance at parties
Hips shaking awkwardly
Arms moving sporadically
To the beat of some song I hate

I look funny when I try to run
My short legs pushing me forward
My arms pumping with each step
My heart beating faster
And my destination doesn’t seem to get any closer

I look funny when I laugh
With my mouth open wide
My braces shining for all to see
My eyes squished by my raised cheeks

I look funny when I cry
Over a sad book or movie or memory
Tears streaking my face
My mouth blubbering uncontrollably
My eyes red and bloodshot

But I do these things anyway
Some bring me joy
Some offer me an escape
Some allow me to let go

Where would we be
If we never acted on what we felt?
Never spoke our minds
Never let go
Because we feared
What others
Would think of us

Who would we be
If our lives were ruled
By how we feel we look to others?

Maybe they are
Maybe they always have been.