Revival?

Ohai unkept diary, I suppose it's plain to see how I do with diaries, filling them out religiously for a period, then leaving them for months and years. I've been pondering updating for a while, but finally decided to do it, despite not having anything concrete in my mind to write about, so I apologize in advance for the cluster of half-baked ideas and thoughts. I suppose the main things I've been doing these days is a mixture of enjoying my summer, despite how short it is, wasting my life on the internet, watching tv and youtube videos, worrying about my future, and being generally self-critical/self conscious, which I suppose is to be expected of a teenage girl. If you ask me, I have been spending too much time with my family, but I'll try to enjoy it since I'll only be living like this for 2 more years...only two more years-yikes. Also, they say junior year is the hardest, which makes me more scared than when I actually think about next year, if that makes any sense. Speaking of next year, I got into all the courses I wanted, which is great. Anyone else in modern poetry?

 I'm sure some of you can relate to future related anxiety, if you guys are still out there. I know you all are going through your own stuff, and I'm sorry about all the crap you have to deal with. Dealing with crap is a suckfest, for everyone involved, and I generally try to remember that as much as possible when dealing with other people, especially ones who I know are troubled in one way or another. It's hard sometimes, but I know that when I have issues or stress or whatever, I'm not at my best, and that reminds me not to judge too harshly, and to be patient and as understanding as possible. Idk why I'm saying all this actually, but I'm sorry if I forget this and lose my patience. I care about my friends a lot, and I just want to see everyone happy, which I realize is not always possible. Please take care of yourselves. I can't stress that enough. I'm working on that personally, so I realize how easy it is to forget that. You're awesome. All of you, and you have no reason to believe otherwise. You may have things you want to change or work on in yourselves, but that doesn't make you any less amazing. It makes you just like every other human. Don't sweat the small stuff, and for the big stuff, don't be afraid to ask for help. I know you're not supposed to offer advice you weren't asked for, but I feel like I need these reminders as well.

 Again, I apologize for the shoddiness of this post, I'm just trying to get back into the swing of things. Better things to come?

Songs of the moment:Sim Sala Bim and Ivy and Gold

Everyone is a hipster

Well, not the city dwelling, arrogant, tattooed college student. I'm talking about the mentality of "liking things before they were cool," and becoming annoyed when suddenly everyone seems to like that thing that only they used to like. Everyone's done this at some point in their life, whether it was over a certain song, type of music or band, a style or type of fashion, or even a hobby/certain activity. I most recently felt this way when I heard a song I really liked on the radio, which should be a good thing, but in a way, I felt annoyed that a "good" song would be played with some of the crap out there today. Instead of enjoying a song that I liked, I jumped to the idea that I would like it less now that millions of people also knew it and would be singing it and playing it at parties. I guess the way I see it, is that the music I enjoy isn't generally well known, and I don't often encounter people with the same music tastes as me outside my group of friends. To be honest, my music taste isn't even that obscure, it's just different enough that not a lot of people are familiar with what I listen to. This can be annoying sometimes, like when I'm trying to talk to others about music, but we're on two different pages. Having a slightly different taste in music does gives me a sense that in a way, I am unique, special, my music is quirky and I'm the only one in the world who likes it, even though I know there are tons of people out there that listen to and enjoy the same stuff I do. I guess everyone gets that way though, everyone has that thing that they feel puts them apart from the public, makes them who they are, and when that thing, whatever it is, is spread among the masses, whether it becomes trendy or hits the music charts, instead of feeling happy that the things they love are becoming loved and shared by others, they feel like they're less special now, and the thing that used to make them unique, now just makes them another face in the crowd. It seems to me that hipsters have formed a culture out of this, trying to gather as much obscurity as possible, to make themselves as unique as they can. This sort of corrupts the point of having your own "thing" since their thing is really just finding of new, more obscure "things". In conclusion, not everyone is a hipster, hipsters just take what everything does, and tries to market it to be unique.

Alright, done trying to sound smart. See you all soon!

My life, as of now (faux philosophical)

I am currently messing around on the internet (Yay for reddit!) while a thunderstorms rages outside. It's that point in the summer where you're clinging to the last threads of summer as it slowly slips from your fingers. I'd much rather just have summer for the next few months instead of school. I mean, school has friends and some cool classes but there's work and actually doing stuff and I just want to sleep and waste time doing stuff I like. Then again, we are some of the lucky ones, we're still young, in the very beginning of our adulthood (Drivers ed in september!) and we're still figuring stuff out and learning how the world works. We have a huge amount of free time and for now anyway, the expectations put on us are nowhere near as bad as they will be. I've been thinking a lot about how great it is to be young, because I feel like that's not something people usually do until they're old. Of course, each part of life comes with great new experiences, but as we gain freedom and independence, we also gain responsibility. This is the time when we can do what we want with few(er) repercussions. We can screw stuff up and experiment without it having a major impact on our lives. We can have fun and still leech off of our parents. Also, no taxes! So yeah, college will be fun and being a grownup and having a family will be great, but I'm pretty content with the way things are right now, and I'm going to enjoy this part of my life and try not to be too sad to leave it.

Home again!

So, 54 bug bites later and I am finally back from camp. From what I can tell, I missed a party, the Harry freaking Potter premiere (NEED TO SEE ASAP), my hamster losing all his hair, the space shuttle, a couple epic sunburns, and eating crap food (I've missed you mozzarella sticks). I am so psyched for Zooey's b-day party, just because I freaking miss people and need to catch up really badly. Camp was actually really fun, and I made some great friends, did some good farming, did some awesome flips in a hayloft and met some nerdfighters. All and all it was a pretty good time. I missed the internet just a little, but I missed people getting my references/understanding my jokes more. I also missed showering and not smelling like poo. Yesterday I learned that henna hair dye, while it seems like a cool idea and has some pretty cool results is not worth a green bathtub or scrubbing your sisters head. If I ever get highlights, I'm doing it with a legit kit. Project runway comes back in a weekish so...yay. Note to self; moar John Green. Did I mention I'm excited for boston? And I miss people? A lot? Guys? Ava, we need to plan an epic beach day, stat. Mosquitos, you need to fuck the fuck off.
Song(s) of the moment: Lisztomania-Phoenix
FOR REAL LISTEN TO THIS IT'S GOOD SHIT
Also Helplessness blues-Fleet Foxes.
P.S. It's really hot outside x(

Yeah...

1. So I am super excited to head out to WA on thursday. I can't wait to see my family and have fun times. Really excited.
2. To fill the void left by my finishing dr. who, I have been watching The Big Bang Theory, which, if you haven't seen it, is the best show in the history of shows and it is so incredibly hilarious and amazing and wonderful and it is soooo funny. WATCH THIS
3. I like summer a lot
4. So today, we were walking around mystic village, near the aquarium, and we saw one of those stores that sells stuff like crystals and fancy rocks and incense for magical type people to communicate with the earth or whatever, and sam saw it, and asked us if we could go in. We asked him why, and he told us he thought it would be a good place to find Harry Potter merchandise.
5. WASHINGTON

Sisterhood of the traveling blogs 1.1

Yeah...see Honor's blog if you don't get this.
(I'm assuming you mean an actual lobster and not L)
1. First, wonder wtf a lobster is doing in a well seeing as they live in salt water
2. Feel sad for the fact that the lobster will probably die shortly
3. Use my super duper climbing skills to climb out of the well, leaving the dead lobster behind.

Sisterhood of the traveling blogs 2.0
If you were trapped on a desert island for a while, and could magically get 3 different types of food (or drink) delivered to you whenever you wanted (You already have a water source and a food source, but it's not that good) what would they be and why?

Dr. whooves

Gotta love it when the fans of two different things come together to create awesomeness. And now that I have watched every single dr who episode of the new series, I have no clue what to do with my time.