Lol

I spent so much time over this summer thinking abt Em. I obsessively replayed moments between us, the good and the bad. I was constantly worrying abt what we were, what we would be. I thought abt her so much and kinda exhausted myself w this obsession. That, plus the 3+ months that have past puts me in a place of relative ambivalence which is interesting? I used to get really excited with the thought of seeing her when I got back to school but now I don't really feel anything. I think this is a good thing, like I found my chill/got over myself. Or maybe I...stopped liking her? I mean better that I've been living my life than obsessing over her, right? Seeing her again should be interesting in any case. Maybe it'll all come rushing back. What'll I do if it doesn't?