Ohai unkept diary, I suppose it's plain to see how I do with diaries, filling them out religiously for a period, then leaving them for months and years. I've been pondering updating for a while, but finally decided to do it, despite not having anything concrete in my mind to write about, so I apologize in advance for the cluster of half-baked ideas and thoughts. I suppose the main things I've been doing these days is a mixture of enjoying my summer, despite how short it is, wasting my life on the internet, watching tv and youtube videos, worrying about my future, and being generally self-critical/self conscious, which I suppose is to be expected of a teenage girl. If you ask me, I have been spending too much time with my family, but I'll try to enjoy it since I'll only be living like this for 2 more years...only two more years-yikes. Also, they say junior year is the hardest, which makes me more scared than when I actually think about next year, if that makes any sense. Speaking of next year, I got into all the courses I wanted, which is great. Anyone else in modern poetry?
I'm sure some of you can relate to future related anxiety, if you guys are still out there. I know you all are going through your own stuff, and I'm sorry about all the crap you have to deal with. Dealing with crap is a suckfest, for everyone involved, and I generally try to remember that as much as possible when dealing with other people, especially ones who I know are troubled in one way or another. It's hard sometimes, but I know that when I have issues or stress or whatever, I'm not at my best, and that reminds me not to judge too harshly, and to be patient and as understanding as possible. Idk why I'm saying all this actually, but I'm sorry if I forget this and lose my patience. I care about my friends a lot, and I just want to see everyone happy, which I realize is not always possible. Please take care of yourselves. I can't stress that enough. I'm working on that personally, so I realize how easy it is to forget that. You're awesome. All of you, and you have no reason to believe otherwise. You may have things you want to change or work on in yourselves, but that doesn't make you any less amazing. It makes you just like every other human. Don't sweat the small stuff, and for the big stuff, don't be afraid to ask for help. I know you're not supposed to offer advice you weren't asked for, but I feel like I need these reminders as well.
Again, I apologize for the shoddiness of this post, I'm just trying to get back into the swing of things. Better things to come?
Songs of the moment:Sim Sala Bim and Ivy and Gold
